my face.. :]

Medicine…

These day’s

We’re all disconnected, in so many ways,

We’re all disconnected, and nobody wants to say,

That they,

They too feel,

This divide, abides inside,

That even when we fight,

We still cry,

Singing,

.. It’s hard to hide,

These tears I feel,

Keep rushing back,

So the tide,

Just wash away,

Just away away…

Just wash away…

This simple conclusion,

We’re all disconnected, myself included,

And me myself, most intuitive, to what it is I feel,

For all the sum of it all,

Still,

We’re all so disconnected,

I really just want to look you in the eyes,

Really, really just try,

To see, that we’re all disconnected,

Affection, it’s not so far away,

Loving you, it’s not so hard to say,

It’s just so confusing,

- Because..

Hands are for,

Holding on,

…. and

Hands they long

…. for,

Holding you,

… and

… these

Hands are such,

Medicine,

We could fly away,

So very high away,

Just seems,

We’re all disconnected, in so many ways,

We’re all disconnected, and nobody wants to say,

That they too,

Feel this divide,

It conquerors, to make it’s name,

Inscribed,

It breaks, and holds us to sleep,

In wake of its pain, that it compounds,

And sings,

Disconnected, .. in so many ways.

It’s lullaby, in harmony sung to the morning, to the day,

Till the night has resounded,

How we are daily surrounded,

By so many,

And yet,  disconnected,

I was so alone, with my heart’s affection,

I was so lost for words,

Not a sound was heard,

So I sang to the moon,

Saying,

Hands are for,

Holding on,

…. and

Hands they long

… for,

Holding you,

… and

… these

Hands are such,

Medicine,

We could fly away,

So very high away,

- Geo Rodriguez … >_> 

Water..

Describe the Sun, ……………….. tell me how it feels,

Your provocative warmth, elicits chills.

A smile, instilled.

Soft and still,

Dreams monumented,

Illustrious illusions, are you real,

I pinch myself, then count,

Drawing closer, it builds and builds,

- Surmount.

Afraid to fall reaching for you…. mountains, upon mountains.  

- Clouds.

Oh chiseled heart, … of steel.

The coldest light, my hands ever did…

- Hold,

Till I’m numb, I can’t feel,

I’m trying to say sorry,

Not sure,

I know…

How words, on pages,

If song in rhythm,  

If any part of me ever really changes,

If poetry in waves, after waves hit,

Moved over me,

My heart on stages,

Naked afraid to be seen,

To think…

…. I’ve staged this,

I hide in the shades of this violet night…. and the greens of forest filled vines,

My true color easily seen,

In the eyes….. of the Sun,

I’m blinded by the curious, wide fire light,

Of your presence,

So small in size, under the Heavens.

I hope my sorry is something you can….

…….

- Acceptance.

I’m sorry, with exception,

I’m sorry, and its affected,

- Me,

- You…

I’m sorry, but more directed..

To point out,

- That..

Inside of me I’m infected… much easier,

If your could accept me,

past, future… and.

Present.

- Geo Rodriguez…  

Reason…

I wish I knew what to say. So I could be sure to never say it. So I could always be looking to find it. I don’t want all the missing things inside.. to be there. You never want to capture the night, or the sun. You just want to enjoy it’s company. Knowing your not alone, that it’s always there, even when your not. .. and love should be that way.
Long pauses. Never falling out of love… just long pauses, before you speak again. We’re just all on long pauses. Just, taking time to breath. You just forget to breath sometimes. You forget what it sounds like. Your own heart beat. Just pause… you’ll hear it again.
I’m far away today, and I can’t explain why, or for how long I’ll be away. Everyone and everything’s too close to me. I can’t say that, .. so I write it. Maybe it’s better that way. Maybe I’m better for it, and everyone else. When I’m close, I don’t know what to do. I forget to breath. I forget to listen.. to pause. And it goes by too fast. Much too fast. And just like that, it’s gone. Before I can even react. That’s dramatic isn’t it.

There’s no reason,
Alone, and dreaming,
Togetherness, I never found meaning,
… and lately, I been meaning,
To tell you, .. that.
There’s no reason,
That I can’t comprehend, completion…
When it comes to me,
I’m always leaving, with no place in mind,
Just alone, and dreaming…
With all my time,
I’ve tried, looking, if only a sign,
In searching, …… I find,
That I’m just lost, - and.
There’s no reason,
No definition to define,
What it is in me, that’s been left out of me, behind.
Looking, I become harder to find.
Fair, .. to stare,
- Though
There’s no reason,
For reasoning, If I’m never there.
I’m just longing, for too long, .. and.
I never care, for all the time it takes.
I’m shooting stars into the night, with all my past mistakes,
Why…

Why…

- Geo Rodriguez… >_>

Forever…

I hate how were all connected. I wish I could change that feeling. The ocean is not room enough, nor it’s depth. To ever keep all I suppress from surfacing. I wish they would stay buried. If we could be so far apart, how much more we would come together.
Just leave me the fuck alone. Get away from me. Let me breath. For the energy to run. For miles, upon galaxies upon all the starts away. The beautiful places are harder to find. An escape. A refuge. A place to not be seen. A dream is better. For better or worse. For a dream, is away…. as I can be.
Places you’ll find me. I wish it was not so. If only worlds away was far enough.

There is a Blue
That I once knew,
- And.
If you take my hand, I’ll to take you too.
The sky, the ocean through,
For very few, resist, this need,
- This.
Reflection of all my Blue,
The depth,
Of my of self deception,
An endless Blue, foiled by my own contention,
A captain forging forth, with no direction,
Can I have your attention,
Can I. Have your.
- Attention,
If need be, can I call out your name,
To my lungs height, tell your very name takes flight,
A very day, for my ever glowing night,
Just to say out loud your name,
To surmise all my Blue,
In your eyes,
Just the same.
And if it could be, that I could not explain,
In words,
- Alone,
How my heart could not contain, the wild fire of all the pain,
The depth of my Blue, in refuge my heart took to you,
Surely, just as the day is new,
I write to this end,
Forever.
Blue.

- Geo Rodriguez >_>